While I'm not a very agressive job-seeker, I sometimes feel anxious about not having work yet, after being back now for more than 7 weeks already. I don't mind it so much, this not-having-a-job, but I'm consious of others, of not doing something 'acceptable' in their eyes. I'm sure that if I were willing, and had been attempting, to take any old job, I could have some kind of work by now - but I want to do something that I want to do. Something that I think I would enjoy, something that I could see myself sticking to for the next number of years if it goes well and I don't decide to change directions. It's not that I'm doing nothing, I am pursuing some leads, have been in contact with some families, have sent out some resumes, and am waiting to hear back from some people.
I'm working a lot lately on trusting God and believing that He has something good for me. That He will open and close the necessary doors.
I'm also working on making the most of this time, when I have no work, or school, or boyfriend, or husband, or chilren, or such, with which to occupy my time. And I've been finding things to do. Things I like to do. Things like...
listening to music, baking cookies, listening to the rain, working on my scrapbook of the past year, drinking tea, spending time with my friends, being with my family, reading good books, shopping with my sister, playing with her kids, buring insence, thinking about stuff...