While I'm not a very agressive job-seeker, I sometimes feel anxious about not having work yet, after being back now for more than 7 weeks already. I don't mind it so much, this not-having-a-job, but I'm consious of others, of not doing something 'acceptable' in their eyes. I'm sure that if I were willing, and had been attempting, to take any old job, I could have some kind of work by now - but I want to do something that I want to do. Something that I think I would enjoy, something that I could see myself sticking to for the next number of years if it goes well and I don't decide to change directions. It's not that I'm doing nothing, I am pursuing some leads, have been in contact with some families, have sent out some resumes, and am waiting to hear back from some people.
I'm working a lot lately on trusting God and believing that He has something good for me. That He will open and close the necessary doors.
I'm also working on making the most of this time, when I have no work, or school, or boyfriend, or husband, or chilren, or such, with which to occupy my time. And I've been finding things to do. Things I like to do. Things like...
listening to music, baking cookies, listening to the rain, working on my scrapbook of the past year, drinking tea, spending time with my friends, being with my family, reading good books, shopping with my sister, playing with her kids, buring insence, thinking about stuff...

I didn't get that job as aupair in Burlington. I'm partly disappointed, partly relieved, and partly indifferent. Disappointed because I liked the family, and the job sounded sweet too - just what I was looking for. Not getting that job also means that I have to continue looking for something else. Relieved because now I don't need to move to Bulington - something I was ready to do, but not entirely ready. I wasn't too fond of the thought of not being able to be around at home every single weekend - I still like my friends, and KWCF, and I don't know anyone in Burlington. Indifferent because we prayed about it before the interview, so I am confident that it wasn't where I was supposed to be, and that God has something else out there for me which will probably be better for me anyways. So I will resume my search for a job as a nanny/aupair/mother's helper/whatever you want to call it, and maybe I can even find something in the KW area. If anyone knows of someone out there looking for one...

I always use natural toothpaste (usually Tom's of Maine) and have done so for the last number of years. The other night I brushed my teeth with regular toothpaste - perhaps Crest, or maybe Colgate. It tasted like I was brushing my teeth with sugary candy, and when I was finished, it felt like I needed to brush my teeth.